Yellow Water

Ah, just my fucking luck! My phone has fallen into urine and now it's not working. This is bullshit, god- are you serious? What an ass. Whatever. There's not much I can do now except wait for Daniel The Man With The Plan come to me and fix my phone. I like that face he gets when he's trying to figure something out.
Anyway:
Ian:
Tonight:

LIVING TO THE FULLEST!

i love you

For M

So, it turns out:

We are alive.

And we alive together.



If I could put into words how much I care about you, the world would crash into the sun and earth would turn into a gazillion little stars and everything would seize to exist because life would not be able to handle all the significance of my love for you.

Such powerful vowel movements required for an explanation of my love for you, has not yet been discovered. But I will always do the best I can in explaining it to you. We've been dealing with some pretty shitty things lately, coming from all directions. Yet, here we are. The shit hit the fan, and we've been able to dodge most of the feces, their feces, but I think our elbows got splattered a little bit. No problem though, we just look cooler now. Yep, just when you thought it was impossible to look more like bad-asses. I'm sorry about being all pissy and sad about the stains sometimes. But believe me: it will pass, and not for a a moment do I forget how deeply I feel for you. Really. I don't care about how "gay" that may sound.

So here it is:



---I love you because you always smell weird- NOT BAD - but weird. Sometimes I spend the entire day coming up with these really cool, involved stories about how you may have acquired the smell. It's great - believe me.

---I love you because together we worry about our intellect and musical integrity. And because thoughts of the universe make us nervous and we say "ah," and shake our heads then hug.

---I love you because you exist with that loud voice of yours and you think it bothers me when truly: it completely amazes me and I'm glad I'm not the only passionate speaker.

---I love you because no matter how hard you could try to be like everyone else, or to fall under their systems and their stupidity, it is inevitably IMPOSSIBLE. And you are more than O.K. with that.

---I love you because you never seem to tire of scribbling down words because awknoledging each day, before it's death, is as important to you as it is to me.

---I love you because it's the only thing that always makes a lot of sense. It's an unfaultering logic.

---I love you because you make this crazy dream significant, even when you are alone in the cold.

---I love you because you make what a majority considers wrong, the most reasonable choice. You make it right, and better.

---I love you because with you movies become just movies, and I love my life more than I admire the lives of all thos actors.

---I love you because I'm happy even if the weather sucks and there are no clouds in the sky.

---I love you because you don't give up, and even the most subtle of glances or nods...says everything.

---I love you because you're good at everything and I just don't tell you so you don't get cocky. And even then you never stop doing what you're great at. And only better yourself, and grow stronger and unbreakable.

---I love you because you remind me that "love," of all sorts, does exist and that it matters.

So there. Let's just say...

This means something.

Always, You know who